Cont.

If God really does have it all figured out then maybe He's using son to draw, coerce, force, me back to Him and son comes too. He will heal son and me. He will restore the years the locust has eaten. He is so good and son is young, with a good heart, he's a great person. We just desperately need polishing up, structure, routine, and conscious contact with God. I've been so scared to mar him that I've retreated from loving him. How I want to go back! But I can't go back, I know. The bottom line is, either God is GOD or He's nothing. So I don't know what He's got planned for us, but I know surprises with Him are good! Not knowing just makes the surprise that much funner! And sweeter. And gives Him all the glory, which is the only way. God will share his glory with no man. So I trust, have faith, that He will pull this tapestry together into a beautiful scene.